Monday, April 21, 2014

Ate a bowl of cereal for dinner, baked a cake, took a long walk, glazed the cake, and drank a glass of wine. The evening has been lovely. 
Things I don't want to do today: Go to the gym

Things I want to do today: Go back to bed 

Update: I went to the gym

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Why haven't we made carrot cake an Easter tradition? I certainly wouldn't complain.
The 1975 makes me all emotional. They're super good. I just discovered that they released all their EP song to the US (finally) and I am listening to them again and feeling weepy. I am so sad I'm missing them when they're coming to Tulsa.

Monday, April 7, 2014

the future

The future. It's always there. In front of you. Looming. You can't get away from it.

The future has seemed bigger these past few days. What to do with it?

I love my job. It's different everyday, but has enough of a schedule to keep my from going insane.

The problem is, it pays well, but not enough to support myself if I ever needed to do so. And it isn't stabile enough to count on income, which would be super stressful if I had a lot of bills.

I didn't go to college because that's a lot of time and effort and money. I wasn't even sure I'd use my degree, because ultimately I wanted to marry and raise a family. I still do.

Marriage isn't something I can go out, work hard at, and then achieve. I have to wait. Trust God.

It could be that I never marry.

I want to have something I'm passion about. Something that gets me up every morning eager to create.

I've been pondering my possibilities these past few days.

I have an idea, but now I am deciding if it is even feasible. Or if it is something I want to pursue. I'll keep you updated.

The future has the ability to terrify or excite.

God promises to be faithful. He always has been in the past. He will be in the future.

My response to the future should be one of excitement.
Please stop asking me if I am going to see The 1975 when they are in town. I'm not. I'll be out of town. Which makes me want to weep. You don't even understand how badly I want to see them. SO BAD.